where have you gone 610 jones?

you used to sleep in a car
your sycophants were little boys
looking for the perfect mushroom tea recipe
their eyes would light up when they spoke of you
your ears would bleed if they reacted to all the chatty kathys
a regular sewing circle about your
history
stature
statements
language
clothes
stories
and of course chemistry
and now you have left it behind
i can not find you
i can not reach you
i have never felt like one of the accepted kathys
and now i ask
god
oh god
where have you gone